Archangel Michael, OCD & Demons

(Oh my!)

Archangel Michael’s name means “Who is like God.” He is seen as the leader of the archangels. The warrior angel, the protector and the one that carries the sword of light that severs illusion and vanquishes darkness.

But what does it really mean to work with Archangel Michael?

What if his greatest teaching is not about calling upon something outside of you but rather awakening what is already within you?

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Even though I wasn’t raised in a religious household, I grew up under the programming of a culture built around a patriarchal, judgmental, distant God. The kind that sits in the sky tallying your sins, ready to condemn you to hell for a single misstep.

And, as a little girl, I developed a rare form of obsessive-compulsive disorder called scrupulosity. It centers on morality and religion, characterized by intrusive thoughts and fears around sin, prayer and condemnation.

Following the concept of original sin, I believed there was something inherently wrong about me and I lived in constant fear of doing something bad. I had an obsessive fear of demonic possession, thinking that I was always at risk of being possessed because my soul was tarnished and God condemned me. My prayers were desperate pleas for forgiveness and protection. I prayed compulsively for hours each night, afraid that if I stumbled over a word or forgot to pray for someone, they might die and it would be my fault or some other terrifying tragedy might occur.

The shape of my childhood was fear dressed as devotion.

Well into my twenties I would pray to God and Archangel Michael to protect me, believing my innate unworthiness required something external to save me.

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Thankfully, in 2022 (after 20 years of OCD), I completed enough meditation, nervous system rewiring and spiritual healing to free myself of OCD.

While this was a BIG liberation, my system was still fried after decades of living in fight or flight mode. I decided to turn to plant medicines to continue facilitating my healing journey.

Cue the most horrifying moment of my life.

During an ayahuasca ceremony, the greatest fear I had ever carried materialized. As I was sitting on my mat, I began to feel the energy shift. Out of nowhere, I felt a dark entity rip into the ceremony space and drive its talons into the right hemisphere of my brain. Fear, despair and panic flooded my system. It was a psychic invasion so intense and gripping that I truly thought my life was over. Even after years of living in fear, I didn’t know what terror truly meant until this moment.

Three guardians rushed to my side to support.

The anxiety was blinding, the purge was brutal, the prayers were strong and, by the grace of God, the entity was released.

While this moment brought many insights (which I will share in the future), it also wreaked havoc across my mind and body. For months, I was fragmented — hypervigilant, on edge and terrified to be alone.

And yet, that night held a revelation.

My teacher, Aluna Lua (@alunalua.angel), who carries a deep connection to Archangel Michael, said something that shifted my cosmology. She told me to stop praying and to BE the prayer. That to pray to Archangel Michael is to know yourself as the force of protection.

All those years of outsourcing my power and begging for something to save me had created a hole in my psychic shield. A hole that was leaking with disempowerment and that could only be filled from the inside.

Lua taught me what the Essences knew: that prayer is a state of being, not a spoken request. To pray for protection is to embody protection. To feel it radiating from your own field.

To “pray” is to vibrate in harmony with what you desire.

So, I stopped asking to be protected and started remembering that I am protection.

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For the next three years, this belief fortified me. “I am protection” became my mantra. I became exponentially more empowered in this period as I learned to hold that which I once prayed for within myself.

Then, this year, my relationship with protection evolved again.

After taking two years away from the medicine space to rewire my nervous system (I’ll share more on this later), I accepted an invitation to sit with bufo in October.

I arrived onto my mat, said a prayer to Archangel Michael to remember protection within myself and breathed in the smoke. One moment I was inhaling and the next I was suspended within the infinite, black womb of the I AM presence. The pregnant silence of God’s love that is simultaneously everything and nothing held me as all self-awareness dissolved. It was pristine and timeless. It was home.

And, as I emerged from this primordial void, the embodied remembrance of Christ’s love was radiating through every cell of my being. For the first time since childhood, I felt safe. Truly safe across all levels of my beingness.

Between this experience and a conversation with an incredible human and teacher (Alex Wolfe @awarewolfe), the difference between protection and safety revealed itself.

When you speak the word protection, you subconsciously agree to a paradigm that assumes there is something you must be protected from. But when you truly feel and know in your body, mind and energy field that the love of God is the substance of everything, you realize there is nothing to guard against.

From the moment we are born, our consciousness begins to be programmed. Belief systems are passed down through family, religion and culture. Some of these codes serve us. Many do not. The ones rooted in fear keep us looping through the same old cycles of control, hypervigilance and victimhood.

This is one of those codes. When we believe we need protection, we unconsciously declare that danger exists. But when we choose safety as the operating system of our reality, when safety becomes the frequency we embody, the illusion dissolves. Cut through by Archangel Michael’s sword.

To be like Archangel Michael, then, is not just to be a warrior wielding the sword of light against an external foe. It is to remember that the sword’s light is sourced from the love of God, the light of Christ, and to use it to liberate yourself from fear and separation. The real war is but an internal battleground of fear programs asking to be liberated back into the clarity of love.

To be like God — Who is like God — is to know yourself as the emanation of divine love and safety. It is to walk the Earth with the awareness that everything arriving in your field is either an expression of love or an invitation to extend it. Either way, you remain the unwavering flame, the living proof that love is the safest place in the universe.

This is not a pathway of spiritual bypassing. To code into safety is to FEEL it. It is to BE it. It took me years of mental, physical and spiritual reprogramming to arrive here. To become the sanctuary within myself. It has been the most worthwhile pursuit of my life so far and it is absolutely possible for you to arrive here too.

So, beloved, you have 3 options:

To pray for protection and outsource your power.

To know that you are protection itself.

Or, to collapse the duality and know that you are safe. You are safety. You are the love of God in form.

In love,

Jade

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